No ping in busy phone

I think I am one of those busy people who spend most of their time on their phone. Cant imagine why but most of that time is passed in thinking about a single person who is just a friend of mine. I have more than 78 friend in my gtalk list but hardly I wait for anyone's ping (few exception are their). But after March, looking at my phone has become my habit. No matter it vibrates or not, I used to think a friend of mine has pinging me (here  I am talking about a very particular friend of mine). A friend who disturbs me a lot, just to say good morning and good night with a beautiful smile. Just a line and I cant keep myself away from my cell phone no matter where I am or in what condition.

Theory of conditional Reflex by Ivan Pavlon is not only applicable to dogs. It is also applicable on human beings. A bell ring and dog will salivate. In the same way, a ping on my phone, I will think it is Gtalk ping from her. Mobile may ping for email, sms and other reason but my mind doesn’t respond that way.

I was waiting for her ping from early morning but considering the fact that she had habit to sleep till 9 A.M., I was destined to wait.

I was opening her chat window after every 2-3 minutes thinking that gmail is not working fine and she might have sent me message in offline mode. I have pinged her many times before but first time in my life, my ego was playing role and blocking my way from my sweet heart (not GF). It was hard to imagine or tell how much I was missing her. Instead of doing my important stuff I was thinking about her and feeling bad about our last meeting in which we didn’t even talk nicely. I know she was feeling bad about my rude behavior and she was hurt a lot but I was feeling the same.

I was missing everything of her, her smile, her useless talks, her fight and many more things. The day was like a year for me.

Finally at night 10, I got a ping from her when I was eating Pizza. I kept my pizza aside and started talking to her and ask her did she miss me? I know the answer was yes but she will never say yes.

Just after 2minutes I got call from her for good night wishes and I know she only wanted to hear my voice. She wanted to tell me that she is fine and I am missing you. Her way of talking told me everything and I just loved it.

Now I don’t know what to say more but all that I can say is I love you and you will always remain in my heart. I will end with one Bengali phrase

 “Tumi robe nirobe hridoye momo”